It’s that “fight, flight or freeze” phenomenon. I get the memo in my head “hey, introduce yourself” then when I, say, get up out of the chair, right before I take that first step, the fear comes in from memories of my ex wife telling me how awful I am or how I never did enough around the house or how I didn’t work hard enough or how ill never get someone as good as her again.
It’s always been exhausting for me to go out (likely autism related, and the more I come to terms with, yes, I’m high functioning or whatever, but at least I am starting to figure out me now).
I have an ex wife who used to tease me about working part time and still feeling work exhaustion. (I was studying at uni at the same time though.) She was a piece of shit for that. Joke’s on her, now I make very good money and have a family and she’s god knows where. She’s a ghost. But let’s not allow any hauntings! 💪
Yeah definitely the traumatic way.
It’s that “fight, flight or freeze” phenomenon. I get the memo in my head “hey, introduce yourself” then when I, say, get up out of the chair, right before I take that first step, the fear comes in from memories of my ex wife telling me how awful I am or how I never did enough around the house or how I didn’t work hard enough or how ill never get someone as good as her again.
It’s always been exhausting for me to go out (likely autism related, and the more I come to terms with, yes, I’m high functioning or whatever, but at least I am starting to figure out me now).
That’s a pretty shitty thing to say to someone.
I have an ex wife who used to tease me about working part time and still feeling work exhaustion. (I was studying at uni at the same time though.) She was a piece of shit for that. Joke’s on her, now I make very good money and have a family and she’s god knows where. She’s a ghost. But let’s not allow any hauntings! 💪